The question What if I were to die tomorrow? comes into my mind once in a while.
Is this a morbid thought? Sure, you can think of it that way. But you can also look at it from a different angle.
I’m not concerned about or afraid of dying. What I am concerned about is how I live my life. If I were to die tomorrow, would I be able to say with my final breath that I lived as fully as I could?
I’m Keziyah, by the way. I’m a writer, ESL teacher, and a disillusioned millennial who is looking for adventure. And generally just trying to figure this whole “life” thing out.
A long time ago, I wasn’t too concerned with travel and adventure. Like many people my age, I did all the things we’re supposed to do. I went to college (shout out to Florida State), got 2 Bachelors Degrees, and then moved to Washington, DC to work in public health non-profits, with the hope of starting my own organization one day.
After just 2 years in the non-profit field, I knew that although I have a passion for social justice, that type of work just wasn’t necessarily for me. And that office jobs are just above-ground replicas of hell.
I decided that my mental health was worth more than any paycheck. My happiness has more value than my student loan debt. I realized that perhaps doing the typical “go to college, work in an office for the rest of your life, hate yourself, die” thing wasn’t for me, and in fact it was terrible for my health. I’ve always known that I’d like to travel one day. But after getting fed up with my life in DC, I realized that “one day” doesn’t have to be some imaginary date in the future. One day can mean right now.
So I moved to Madrid and taught ESL there for less than a year, and as I write this I’m more than halfway through my first year of teaching in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia.
My goal for this blog is simple: attempting to document my efforts to carpe-diem. Trying to live as fully as I can, whether that’s through travel, learning new things, having new experiences, or challenging myself. It’s less about “finding myself” — I’m pretty sure I know who I am — and more about trying to be the best me I can be.